Lessons

So I'm taking from this the fact that I have learned to step up my game. I know how to work hard when I like it, or when I like the person I am doing it for, but I ahve trouble motivating myself when I feel that it is a pointless or graceless effort. However, I have always known sometimes we have to do things we don't want to and sometimes we have to do things for people we don't want to. The last few days have been tough, but rewarding, at least to myself. I have tried to put more effort into being part of the family, although I still feel they don't treat me as a member. And I have tried to do extra little things, even though instead of a thanks I usually get, "You see how easy it is?" Sometimes I want to scream. So this is me letting go. I cannot change the people or circumstances, but I can be happy with knowing I have done my best. Well most of the time I can.