Estress

Have you ever been somewhere and someone walks in the room and suddenly you can just feel all positive energy leave? That's what it was like 10 minutes ago when Nadine walked in the house from her three day business trip. It makes me feel sick to just hear that tone of voice for 10 minutes straight. I can't imagine how these children are supposed to grow up without heart problems. They are scared of moving for their parents yelling at them, although they are never punished. Which may be worse that they are threatened but nothing is ever followed through on.
I need to leave this place. I'm not a stressed person but it's hard not to let Nadine's stress saturate my emotions. AHHHHH! The poor children have been waiting and waiting for their mom to come home and she is sitting in the kitchen talking Juan Carlos's ear off about something that is wrong in the world of fruit. Leave it alone for 10 minutes and hug your kids. It pisses me off. It also pisses me off that I had two great days with the kdis and now tomorrow we're all going to feel the stress again because we can't talk or move without being told to shush.
I worry for the children and that's the one thing making it hard to leave. I can't wait to go home and see everyone and be out of this environment, but I was just getting the kids to learn things and now I have to go. And who knows what the new au pair will be like. Apparently they have a lot of applications. One was a 30 year old woman, who I think the kids could probably benefit from, but Nadine thinks there must be something wrong with someone who doesn't want to do real work. However, she thinks there is something wrong with most people. I like positive people, even if I'm not really one of them, I'd like to be.
And apparently now there's nothing to eat. But there's plenty. There's always plenty. She just wants to eat the same thing every day. If she got a little creative she could actually use her food. I hate that I've been criticized for not cooking new things, when really she would eat the same thing every single day if I wasn't here.